Gone To My Happy Place Back Soon...

Happy was gone, despair is coming. When I finally made a decision and told them of my plan. Firstly, they were understanding and acceptable what I had made. They're telling it was dangerous, that was unsafely by instantly.  Fine...with this kind of reason, in the first place, they shall not given me a hope and turned me off within a few minutes. That's totally hurt and I was get angry and ignore them for more than a week. Don't just simply making a tongue-in-cheek remark that will make someone disappointed.

Within this few days, I just wanna runaway from house. 'Cause by I really no idea for facing and talking to them. After the deep consideration, maybe I'll probable throw up my dream in a moment (I had do it so) and follow the way their expected. Zombie was born when I walk through the way I dislike. No heart , No passion, nothing at all except my body was prove that I still alive.

How painful it is when I putting my dream down. Although a lot of people said in that way "That was not a suitable job for a future". While, so what. I still have time and I was young too. What I need to worry about it? In case, I fall down, I be able to stand up again and then restart/ continue. That's not a big deal for me. What I was chosen, I had a courage to face it no matter what kind of situation.

Chance had been gone, 

World still keep turning;

 Life need to live;

 I must be changing.

A Moment Like This...

(A Moment Like This)

Suddenly wanna sing this song at night. What are your feeling the moment? Happy, Sad, Gloom or other. My feeling is GLOOM. Same like a cloudy of sky. No light, No rain. Feel like nothing. Such a bad moment on day.

Within a day, I had force myself to focus on my studying, and left all the negative mind out of brain. But seem this is not work at all. Although I having a bad feeling in this moment, doesn't mean I can't get a happiness after. Nothing you can expect, Nothing you can control. All is coming and pass through on it. You can't catch it, you can't leave it.

That's true. When I saw an airline company posted a news for cabin crew open day on 30 October 2013, I'm excited. 'Cause this's what I so acquisitive. Previously, I'd saw a same post via online, but unfortunately was expiry. Open day is on 13 October 2012. Haha...So I told myself, if this airline has another open day, no matter how hard is it, I need to go. But a chapter of troublesome is annoyance. A lot of matter I shall think before action. Such as, the open day at Kuala Lumpur (KL) while I'm staying at Ipoh. Where should I stay when I at KL?  How to go the venue for station? and blah blah blah...This drive me crazy like maniac. I couldn't slept well at night, and made me a person who nervous breakdown. Additional, I have no appetite for eat a food, easy to get angry by some other (this sill controllable). Affair is haven settle down on a day, my living schedule will be continue unhealthy, unhappiness and so forth. Who can save me? I need again at this time.

This status I'd been posted on Facebook, friends were told me, such like, please go ahead, go go go, 頑張って, and so on. Thanks of yours' supporting and I had received. Now, the problem is throwing back to me. I had to remove all the barriers were blocking me to step forward for fulfill my childhood dream. So, from tomorrow onward, I get plenty of thing to do, prepare my Curriculum Vitae (CV)/ Resume, familiar of the company history and background, improve my languages in a short period and other. So that, I need to work hard and make my wish come through...頑張って, 화이팅...♥♥♥

What should I do? STEP OUT...

Sometimes, I'll told myself, don't be so serious. Maybe there has other path I should walk through. But I was the person who very obstinate, matter that had stuck in my mind, I wouldn't easy to let it go. So..."what should I do?" asked by myself. Answer of question always is SIGH.

Night, is nightmare for me. I don't realized has I wasted yesterday? Or shall I holding a hope for tomorrow? Had a quote 'Hope on Tomorrow' wrote by a Chinese author. But may this am I another disappointed day? Maybe I didn't put any effort on it OR I scare to face on abort. There have a plenty excuse I can found by myself. Is it I need? No, I just need a solution, a method can solve a problem and success...Ahhhh!!!

Phobia had been invaded me for a long time. How can I chase them away? Who can rescue me? Who can bring me out of the situation? Finally, I found out who the person can rescue and bring me out of the situation. The answer is MYSELF. Oh gosh, are you kidding? I so hover at the moment, and how could I rescue myself. Also, how can survive for an upcoming years I've no idea yet. 'Cause need to pass through this years is such a big trouble for me too. Feeling like I'm a troublemaker, useless, timid and so forth. Is I am an extra in the world? If I gone, world still turning , people focus on their life, nothing will be change except a matter that had change, I'm gone. So, what a big deal I shall kill myself? Therefore, I'll exist and work hard, stay hard, play hard and blah blah blah till the world end. Haha...Sorry for a non-sense I wrote. But, thanks for who care of me and had a same kind of feeling with. 

What are a character I act for? Living in the world, people will be given a character to act during his/her whole life. This is a fact. So, what a character I am? Be a loser? Be a timid? Be a troublemaker?...Am I own a multiple personality? No, this normal. People are own more than I personality but just one character that they can act. Have you discover your own character? I haven find it. Is it had appear in front of me and I miss it? Or it haven show out? Answer always made me became a stupid guy and blur for my path. Wipe, wipe and wipe...Path has become clearly and I saw it. Please wait for me and now, is time to...

STEP OUT MY COMFORT ZONE